Sunday, February 21, 2010

We Shall See....

Okay, so I have chosen to NOT have sex again until I'm married.....now don't get me wrong, this is, and will continue to be, a daily struggle. And it's scary too!

I started having sex almost 16 years ago....that's a long time to be in the sex game. LOL!! I'm just sayin....but seriously, the older I get, the more I feel like there has to be a better way. Now don't get me wrong, I like banging. A LOT actually, but as far as relationships go, in the beginning anyway, I just think sex complicates things. If I can be with someone that I really care about, AND get to know them on a level way deeper than sex, that would be awesome... however, it would suck to finally have sex on the wedding night or something, and it suck....

I'm faithful....in the idea that it won't suck on the wedding night. I'm not planning any wedding, but I may be planning one one day. If not, I'll just be one unbanged sister. I mean, I thought about it, and I'm totally worth the wait....why did it take me so long to get that? Never too late though, right?

I'm still not sure how far I'll go with my guy....I'm pretty sure there will be NO oral sex....maybe a little finger banging here and there.....but definitely NO penetration. I'll dry hump my vagina raw, but he won't feel my warm goodness unless he's my spouse. I brushed up against his crotch by accident...seriously, it was an accident! But um, yea....I would totally have something to look forward to...size wise.....I can't speak on anything else though...surely we would be able to work with anything else.....maybe? Hopefully....

Like I said, I have faith that if and when I'm married to someone else, if I wait...you know, and do it the "right" way, I won't be disappointed. God wouldn't do that to me, would he? Give me the strength to wait until I got married, just for the sex to be whack....Oh please God don't do that to me! Please!

I'll keep you guys posted on my journey to re-virginizing myself.....may the force be with me!

9 comments:

Kingsmomma said...

I too have taken that vow and as you said it is a daily struggle but the force is with you... You can do it.. I don't think I even want to flirt with danger by doing all that other stuff. Light kissing is far enough for me... all that otherstuff would seriously weaken my resolve.

Eb the Celeb said...

wait when you said oral did you mean to say anal???? I was confused lol

Misunderstood said...

Lol! I totally meant to say oral, however, anal should be included as well. LMAO!

Misunderstood said...

Lol! I totally meant to say oral, however, anal should be included as well. LMAO!

Misunderstood said...

Lol! I totally meant to say oral, however, anal should be included as well. LMAO!

Anonymous said...

Good luck! Unfornately I falled @ this journey! lol..I lasted an entire year and after that I just gave in. I think in your case you are doing it for the right reasons but for me I was just trying to be something I wasn't...trying to conform to society standards on what a "lady" should be. I wish you the best I'm routing for you! I got a friend that has held out for 7 years so it CAN be done! Hold on and be STRONG!


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Smokie said...

Hmmmm...so what happens if you fall in love? I don't think you can be doing any PLAYING and dry humping. LOL

Miss Jia said...

Chile I wish you luck with that. There is absolutely NO way I could be involved with someone and not sample the goods. Sex is, without question, a deal breaker in a relationship for me. If the sex is bad (or "unfixable") then we won't work. I'm not a cheater though...I'd break up with your ass and be done with it.

I am, however, going to keep you in my thoughts (I won't say prayers b/c I don't think Jesus would appreciate me praying that you don't give up the vag before marriage....wait. He MIGHT appreciate that but He surely wouldn't appreciate me praying that once you DO get a taste, it's good. Yea, I'll pass on that prayer haha).

Anonymous said...

Hi Misunderstood,

I stumbled across your blog 20mins ago and already love the candid manner in which you express yourself. I hope that all goes well for you :-) You go girl!

I had one serious bf (lost my virginity to) who broke my heart and since then I have been keeping it together for 5+ years (I'm 26). I'm not waiting for marriage anymore because I don't think that it will happen for me. But sex is not all it's made out to be.